While contemplating this process of healing and recovery, there is something so amazing and life altering that happens when you just can’t do everything you used to do.
“Don’t be afraid of death; be afraid of an unlived life. You don’t have to live forever; you just have to live.” ~Natalie Babbitt
WOW! This quote really hit me, LIKE HIT ME, took me to my knees.
As Brene’ Brown would say…the beginning of my year was (in my mind) turning into a “Shitty First Draft”!
My story was being altered by events that were making me THINK… WTF
This year started with a “BANG”, Breaking my ankle; then My own Mother, a woman who is always healthy, came close to losing her life with appendicitis;
Then WHAM, my Mother in law passed away.
Jenn what “really” matters to you? Is it always going to be about losing 10 lbs, doing 20 more pull-ups, winning a burpee challenge, getting complements about my arms; or
being THAT BUFF woman til I die?
Am I going to be that “fitness” person that doesn’t have any substance? That one who seems to never really explore who I authentically want to be?
Always getting that question… “how can I get abs like that?”
It is so profound, the death of a loved…it makes you think.
WTF am I doing, WTF am I waiting for;
MY own DEATH? Life is so short, you realize this when someone you love passes on. No COMPARISON OF anyone’s life to my own; Just a huge REALITY CHECK INTO MY OWN LIFE!!
WTF!! REALLY!!? OKAY, UNIVERSE WHAT ARE YOU SAYING?
OH, COME ON! It seems almost comical.
These moments, these events are teaching me something about myself.
Something has shifted in the way I perceive my life.
I AM RESILIENT!
MY LIFE is meant to be lived, go have FUN, PLAY and be sure to ENJOY every moment.
So NOW I am REWRITING my “Shitty First Draft”. I am planning on doing those things I was capable of doing (prior to my injury) but I just didn’t,
because for no other reason than I JUST DIDN’T!
Thank you UNIVERSE , I hear ya!!!